"Why is gramma so sick?"

Those are the words Conner asked me tonight at the dinner table. Brads gramma Shirley in Idaho has been hanging onto life by a slim thread this past week in the ICU on a ventilator. She's had moments where we thought she wasn't going to make it, then miraculously she'd wake up a bit to acknowledge the visitors, so it's been quite a roller coaster of a week. Well tonight, she gave up her fight. She passed on about 2 hours ago now...which brings about a very wierd mix of emotions, worries and feelings. Brad is very distraught, naturally. And I miss her terribly already. I feel a bit better knowing that now she's another angel watching out for sweet Conner along with both my grandpa's, my great aunt, and brads other grandma among others. Because we could really use all the divine intervention we could get! but now...


Now we have to figure out how to bring up gramma GG dyeing to our sons. We were planning on talking to the kids about illness and dyeing with everything that is going on with Conner, and now it's going to be very real. a very intense talk. Because now it's not taboo...it won't be a "someday" you will die type talk...it'll now be "today" your great grandma died...etc and im so very worried about that. Talking about death never was something that I felt would be easy to do, or for Conner as well, but now it's real and now it's going to be even more difficult.



He asked at dinner why is GG (great gramma) so sick and in the hospital...and Brad has real emotion right now having just lost his grandma...so now i'm very concerned about this discussion. and I'm just not sure what to do

Lordy, if anyone has any advice or ideas I'm all up to listening. Because I feel so confused just thinking about it.

Please pray for strength, pray for me, for brad, for conner and hunter and please pray for the entire Erikson family for their great loss tonight. And may GG Shirley forever rest in peace.
(GG surrounded by Michelle, me, Tammy and Jenny)