I don’t really expect this to make much sense. I’m just gonna babble it out.
His headstone is in.
Installed in the ground.
above his bodies resting place…
and it’s become a permanent, REAL, harsh reality.
he is gone.
and we have been left behind to manage somehow.
grief has no timetable, infact the shock of his passing has just begun to lift.
he had a birthday he wasn’t alive for, forever 7 and never 8.
his headstone is in the ground signifying the end of his precious life on earth.
mothers day…and one of my babies isn’t here for it for me to hold him or receive a special craft from.
cf walk is next weekend. he will not be there to walk and hold his banner and wear his new shirt with us.
it’s almost been one year.
never felt so lonely.
never felt so broken and raw.
his headstone is beautiful.
and the ugliest thing I’ve ever seen.
CF Warrior Conner Reed Jones
Our son, our brother, our hero
hold your kiddos tightly…
Love Love Love