So Conner boy has been busy lately.
Lots of visiting.
Lots of Love he’s been giving…
So I wanted to let you all know what he’s been up to…
*He’s been visiting many, MANY people in their dreams.
*Each day there’s at least ONE occurance of me randomly finding red where I’m sitting, standing etc. For example tonight it was, I was at a mixer event and was standing near the table I was representing, and I look down and my foot is standing right next to red paper of some sort…
*A few weeks ago there was red string in my blankets when I awoke in the morning, and just today his buddy Nate woke from his nap with red string in hand.
*His bingo buddy Matt is back in the hospital tonight. Matt got a Wii in his room and went to play a game and GUESS whose Mii’s popped up? All on one screen was Conner, Hunter, Mommy, Daddy, Bradyn, Grover and James (another CF buddy) I mean HELLO!!!
*A few weeks ago his other cf buddy, Miss Tessica was playing Conners favorite, Wednesday BINGO at Doernbecher and when she won, she raced to call in to be the first to win, but alas someone beat her to calling in, and his name was CONNER. (they were bingo rivals if you didn’t know)
*Too many red sunsets to count
*I was searching on Amazon last night for more books on grief and guess what book popped up? Here’s the cover..and tell ME that’s not from Conner
Red balloon and all…safe in the arms of God. Love it. Of course I bought it…
and beyond that He’s leading me to meet new people almost daily…and almost always leading me to talk about him and share his story of LOVE. It never fails that people will be touched and blessed by his love story. Our families love story. He’s put life into perspective for me and for so many people. Lives are forever changed because of him. FOr 7 years old, isn’t that amazing? You can google his name and you can get Conner spelled out and his full name will pop up Conner Reed Jones and there are pages and pages about him. blogs written. lives touched. perspectives changed. and to think that this was all part of Gods amazing plan for my family. Living in the greatest pain, and feeling so inadequate trying to fight that horrible beast, CF, and all along “his plans were to prosper us and not to harm us”.
There truly is beauty in pain.
There truly is LOVe in death.
There truly is purpose and reason to hope.
Tonight, as I was reflecting back over all the ways He’s still with me…for the firsttime since his passing I just felt happy. SO happy for him. I wonder if he knew all along the plan for his short life…and if he knew the depth of meaning his name would carry. I wonder if he knew how greatly his LOVE would change this world?
I don’t know…but I will certainly find that out when my time here is done.
what I do know for sure though…is I’m one proud mama tonight.
my heart is glad.
there’s tears of joy in my eyes and a smile of LOVE on my face.
LOVE LOVE LOVE