My arms are empty and acheing...

I can’t believe I’m a mother without…

Life has been twisted and turned upside down. As a mother, I had both the wonderful privilege of holding my sweet son as I brought him into this world…and the horrible chore of holding him as he took his last breaths and left this world, at only 7 years old. June 24, 2010 he earned his angel wings, passing away after an inspiring but brief fight against Cystic Fibrosis. Now I live, solely focusing on living a life to get to be with him again in heaven, and to raise awareness for Cystic Fibrosis research. I am dedicated to a cure, not only for my sweet sons legacy but so that other CF families never experience the greatest loss of their lives that we are now facing. My mother’s arms are missing Connerman, yet he still inspires me daily to leave a mark of LOVE on this world…so for you my sweet prince, mommy will try!

Love Love Love

Always Always Always

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

9 years ago today....

I married my bestfriend Brad Jones at 2pm in the afternoon on a beautiful sunny day in Olympia, WA....Today I focus on our love and not on our circumstances. This reality has thrown us closer together...and for that I'm very greatful and blessed. Yes we are both grieving, and both in very different ways and at very different times...but we have managed to keep our foundation solid despite it all...not perfectly...but enough for us each to get thru this horrible circumstance.

I'm so greatful to him for everything he has done and continues to do for our family. The sacrifices he makes for us on a daily basis. The job that provides our family with food and a roof over our heads and dinner on the table, the cuddles that he gives that makes us all smile, the love he has for his 3 sons who look just like him, the gratititude he shows me for the work I do at home with our kids and im just greatful that despite my craziness he has never wanted or threatened to leave my side...

and i love him now more than i ever thought i could...and far more than I did when we got married. Because as you married folks know...the beginning love is what pulls you together, but the tested and enduring love is what lasts a lifetime...

Happy 9 years together Brad, i love you and I can't wait to have date night dinner with you tonight...


  1. My husband also acts differently when dealing with CF, and the many procedures our guys have to go through. It's taken me a while to try to understand why he was acting a certain way. Luckily, my loving mother has knowledge about why he was acting so odd. ((hugs)). Your doing an amazing job with Conner.

  2. Aw! How amazing :) Happy Anniversary guys!

  3. It warms my heart to feel your connection, your love. He knew...He really did...when He put you two together.


  4. Happy Anniversary. May God continue to help you through this difficult time. Have a great time on your date night.


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