God provides....

We've been home from the hospital for a full day now. We've settled back in, got unpacked and everything washed and sat for a few minutes before dragging it all out and repacking it again! Only we are so excited that we get to! Tomorrow we're leaving for the beach trip that was so graciously provided to our family by Living Hope Church. Thursday thru Monday in a immaculate house right on the beach in Manzanita, OR. We are so blessed and so thrilled to be going. Not only are the accomodations taken care of for us, but they gave us a HUGE tote full of beach toys and sand fun, kites and bubbles galore. Our kids are more than excited for this wonderful distraction. Life has been so difficult and mundane, just going thru the day to day motions, this couldn't come at a better time. We all need a good distraction and some very quality family time together away. I had a garage sale last weekend and managed to sell enough stuff to more than take care of our food and gas needs for this trip, so that too is a huge blessing. We're taking Conners pain meds and his IV antibiotics along with his other daily medications oh yes and plenty of oxygen to get us thru this trip very comfortably. Much like Conner mans make a wish in january to hawaii, this is giving our family something to look forward to, instead of the everyday lull of watching him struggle. I know many are reading this from Living hope church and my heart just needs to tell you thank you so much. For blessing our family in the time of the greatest need. For praying for us. For loving us. Our cameras are charged and ready to shoot a million pictures and at least 3 hours worth of dvd's...nothing matters more than family.
Last night Brad and I met with the local hospice, and we still decided its not for us. For some it's great, but their limitations don't fit with our therapies for Conner. But they are extroidinary people there, and since our home health nurse is in that same office they'll just tailor to our needs as far as the bereavement groups and counseling, and keeping his pain under control all while having the flexibility of doing home iv's or even a trip to doernbecher if we so chose. we really feel so glad to have that meeting done, and our minds made up for now. We'll reevaluate as things change, but for now we're good. and that is very comforting.
Brad has taken all of this week off so he can spend time with us as a family and to try to manage the stress and grief he's going thru at this time. like me, it comes and it goes, and some days are great and others it is a fight to even get out of bed. so please pray for him that this weekend can help him to feel refreshed. Usually I'm worried about our finances if he misses work because we're a single income family, but more than ever, and more surely than I've ever felt or said before...

God provides.
He proved that to us without a doubt. He provides.
I pray you each enjoy your families for this memorial holiday weekend, and while we take time to remember those who've served for our country and to protect our freedoms...first and foremost take time to simply enjoy being alive. for family. for friends. and most of all, for God.
Love