My arms are empty and acheing...

I can’t believe I’m a mother without…

Life has been twisted and turned upside down. As a mother, I had both the wonderful privilege of holding my sweet son as I brought him into this world…and the horrible chore of holding him as he took his last breaths and left this world, at only 7 years old. June 24, 2010 he earned his angel wings, passing away after an inspiring but brief fight against Cystic Fibrosis. Now I live, solely focusing on living a life to get to be with him again in heaven, and to raise awareness for Cystic Fibrosis research. I am dedicated to a cure, not only for my sweet sons legacy but so that other CF families never experience the greatest loss of their lives that we are now facing. My mother’s arms are missing Connerman, yet he still inspires me daily to leave a mark of LOVE on this world…so for you my sweet prince, mommy will try!

Love Love Love

Always Always Always

Thursday, October 14, 2010

Another Thankful Thursday…

Naturally its been a week so I cannot recall what I was thankful for last week…so I hope they don’t overlap…my brain is mush anymore anyways, so I’ve learned to give myself a break. I learned you have to do that. Nobody is more critical of you, then you are of yourself. Myself included. We can be our own enemies if we let ourselves stay in the dark…

This week I am thankful for books.

I’ve been reading many facinating books on grief and loss of a child, and I’m learning to accept my feelings and emotions as normal. it helps me to not feel so alone. Some of my recent favs are Mary Beth Chapmans book “Choosing to SEE”, Angie Smith’s book “I will carry you”, “How to go on living when someone you love dies” by Theresa Rando PhD,  “The Empty Chair” by Susan Zonnebelt-Smeenge, and “When Your Family’s Lost a Loved one” by Nancy Guthrie.

amazing books.

amazingly insightful.

I’ve gotta huge stack of books yet to read so I’m working my way thru them…

but alas today…I’m absolutely thankful for books on grief and loss of a child…



Love Love Love

1 comment:

  1. Sarah, I just started reading Mary Beth Chapman's book this week, and I was going to email you to tell you about it. She's incredibly real and honest, which is refreshing to read.


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