Oh my goodness.
Oh my goodness.
I’m so excited I can hardly contain myself.
I’ve heard before about different people receiving love from beyond heaven…but I admit I was partially skeptical. Only because it’s never been something I would’ve ever had any experience with…but it’s happened.
Three nights ago my husband and I got home from Vancouver, it was dark outside. We grabbed the boys took them inside and we went back out to get our stuff from the van…and Brad stubbed his toe on what we thought was the uneven pathway…he looked down and picked up a red lego piece…we both thought it was bizarre because we’d been gone for two days and they’re the bigger legos that we really don’t have many of anyway. But in my mind I thought oh my it’s Conner. I’ve been sure his heavenly home is made of red legos. but, i brought it inside still skeptical and put it in a secure spot where nobody knew where it was.
The next day I talked to a girlfriend and she had been at our house the day before and had her son with her and said he was playing with legos upstairs in conners room so then my heart sunk, thinking that he probably had the red lego still and dropped it there.
Well tonight was difficult.
Today was difficult.
today was Brads first day back to work, and while he made it thru, it was a very difficult day for him.
and for me…tonight was my first CF Family Council meeting since the night before Conner passed. I walked back into the hospital that we’ve considered home away from home and the smells and the memories overwhelmed me. i went on the floor after the meeting and hugged some nurses and volunteers and listened to how they were all so devestated when they learned Conner passed away. I left feeling very upset. very melancholy. very much not ok. i started driving home and i noticed the beautiful moon tonight, a simple sliver in a beautiful shade of orangish yellow and then i noticed a huge bright star next to it. then i realized it was the only star in the sky…i smiled a bit feeling still so overwhelmed and said…”hi conner i hope thats you” and the star followed me all the way home and left sight as i pulled in front of the house. I take a deep breath to kind of collect my emotions and start walking up the drive and
I looked down and it was a red lego in the same spot where we found the other one. I choked and picked it up and looked in the sky and said “are you kidding me?” and i kid you not…clear as day I heard Conners voice in my ears saying “its me mommy”
i run inside yelling for brad who can’t hear me us he’s upstairs playing xbox. i go up there and ask him if they’d been outside today and he said no. i said ok anyone go out front since i’ve been gone and he said no. it’s just he and bradyn, hunter is at his cousins house for a few days and so i knew he didn’t have it there…i said “brad…i found another red lego” and we both started laughing. i mean mouth dropped to our ankles laughing.
i ran downstairs to where i placed the lego from a few days before and IT WAS STILL THERE….
this was the exact same red lego piece…as the one we found on Sunday.
My heart is swollen with love. this couldn’t come at a more perfect day as today. it was horribly difficult and connerman is simply sending us his love from beyond the clouds…
and please…i know how this may sound cus i was in your shoes not too long ago when I’ve read about others peoples “experiences” similiar to this…but I will never in my life ever doubt it ever again.
simple red legos can make the biggest difference in the world…
connerman I love you baby!